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Post by juicy14 on Mar 2, 2006 13:15:18 GMT -5
This is a poem I wrote....
by the way, I don't want you to think I'm depressed all the time or something, I just write what's on my mind lol
LOST
Trying to open my eyes
I can only see blurry
exhausted from all the cries
blinded by all my fury
in between this confusion
I ask myself if I'm real
seems like my life is an illusion
don't understand the way I feel
Can you take away the anger?
Can you take away the pain?
let the sun shine, stop the rain?
The tears I cry make me hopeless
I doubt that you will find me
for I'm sitting in the darkness
loneliness is all I see
with these blinded eyes of mine
waiting for you to save me
knowing it's too late
with all your tenderness
you can't fight my weakness...
and you can't save me from myself!
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Post by jeremysgrin on Mar 2, 2006 16:14:12 GMT -5
That was absolutely wonderful, Sabrina. As always.  May I ask...why you are so sad in your writing? Who were you asking in your poem to save you? |
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Post by juicy14 on Mar 8, 2006 12:18:01 GMT -5
I really don't know why I always write depressive poems lol.....it's just something that comes out of me somehow......  |
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Post by jeremysgrin on Mar 8, 2006 17:24:32 GMT -5
Are the poems your true feelings?  |
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Post by juicy14 on Mar 9, 2006 12:02:48 GMT -5
well, you know....it's not like I'm depressed and angry all the time....there are days I feel very good and happy and stuff....but this is a part of me, too....just not the one I usually show....the truth is...people rather see smiles than tears...
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Post by jeremysgrin on Mar 9, 2006 15:33:12 GMT -5
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Post by juicy14 on Mar 10, 2006 12:11:41 GMT -5
lol you shouldn't say something like that.
This is exactly what happens to me all the time. people always think my life is perfect...they're like:
"Look at her, she's got a lot of money, nice friends, cool parents and a sweet boyfriend...."
And that's true...but it's not all and that's the problem. My past always seems to overhaul me again, especially when I'm alone so I try to spend as much time as possible with my friends or Sebastian....but he doesn't understand me either, nobody does so what does it even matter?
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Post by jeremysgrin on Mar 10, 2006 17:44:10 GMT -5
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Post by juicy14 on Mar 13, 2006 13:30:20 GMT -5
well yeah, I guess Germany isn't too bad....you know, in fact it's kinda weird...my whole life is like some kind of a bad hollywood movie....I've already told you about my problems with anorexia and bulimia and all that kind of stuff....I usually wouldn't tell anyone but most of the people here don't even really know me and they'll probably never meet me in person so......my life is just pretty f^cked up. My parents don't give a f^ck about what I do or how I feel, my friends just don't understand me at all....neither does Sebastian, he's very sweet and tries to be as understanding as possible but I just don't trust him 100 per cent. I can't. Don't ask me why, it just doesn't work. I've done so many wrong things in my past....before Sebastian became my boyfriend...well I told you guys that I lost my virginity early and well I just had sex with al lot of guys. Most of them were way older than me and they probably exploited my naivety and stuff....my psychiatrist thinks I did it because I needed the reassurance (dunno if that's the word).....well you already know about my problems when it comes to self confidence.... you see there are lots of things I can't be proud of |
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Post by jeremysgrin on Mar 13, 2006 20:22:43 GMT -5
I sure wish I was there instead of crappy Georgia. Oh wow, Sabrina...I had no idea about all this other stuff.  Whoa.... I didn't know you had bulimia too! Why do your parents not care? Did they tell you that they didn't care? I didn't know you went to a psychiatrist either! What did you need reassurance about?  Does Sebastian know about all your past problems? I think he's been your best boyfriend for you so far...even though I don't know about your other boyfriends. Well, even though you aren't proud of the things that have happened...you can at least learn from them and not do them again. That is the only thing you can do...is just go forward. It may not be worth much but I'm proud of you and I've told you that lots of times. My opinion has not changed. I don't know if you've read it or not but I responded to your last post on IMDB.com about your story. I wrote it weeks ago. You should go read it if you haven't yet. You are a sweet kind girl.  |
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May I ask...why you are so sad in your writing? Who were you asking in your poem to save you?
What makes you sad or depressed? 
Germany is like Disneyworld compared to Georgia. I wish I was there...Germany I mean. 